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So... where do I begin?

Well... I've always felt kinda down but I figured I was just one of those people that was more down that up. I'm really creative, I like to write, draw, paint make music. I just assumed I was one of those long-suffering artistic types that was just a bit too sensitive. Anyway it used to be bearable thanks to the miracles of Chemistry. I bombed myself out of my brain for a good 15 years on whatever I could get my hands on and by that I mean the list. It gave me a whole new persona... I could out-drink, out-snort, out-pop, out-drop or out-inject anyone I knew. Well, maybe not so much on the out-inject part. That's when things started to go a bit crazy. I got a bit Flatliners there... heh. So I got out and stopped using over time. More on that later. But I got relatively clean but started having these really bad nightmares, gory and stuff. Got to the point where I was really tired and run-down. So I spoke to a few friends who were in the industry, a psychologist and a psychiatrist. They told me to see my GP so I did. He sent me to a head doctor (a psychiatrist) who diagnosed me. That was last Wednesday. Since then I've been in denial (amongst other things). Now I'm doing this. I hope to post every day with both failures and successes. Hopefully more successes. I will be exploring the past and the present in order to make a clear future.

Stay tuned. And if anyone is reading this, feel free to make comments.

First Post

Hi.

My name is Makewell. I was recently diagnosed with a form of depression. I know. It's depressing writing it. This blog will be my venting etc, and a journal to record my progress/lack of it, my attempt to understand this condition and the mission to beat it. Trust me, it ain't gonna be smooth sailing but I feel I need this anonymous outlet to spew my stuff. Maybe no-one will read this. Maybe you will. We'll see.

Now, on with the show.